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I'm Arthur. This is my website. I threw together a basic structure using GitHub Pages (because tech geek) to get something off the ground quickly.
I have about a million and one things I'm passionate about that I want to get out of my brain and onto proverbial paper.
Some of it is about me personally and my own history, experiences, and growth. Some of it is observations about the world, social and interpersonal dynamics, philosophy, psychology, and other not-about-me-directly things like TV, product design, and project management. Some content is in style of date-specific blog posts, and some content is captured in "timeless", "living" posts...I haven't written any of the latter yet, but I have created a ton of stubs to give an indication of what I want to write about (and there are a ton more I haven't created stubs for yet, too).
Frankly, a huge motive for me here is to create what amounts to an "Arthur wiki" or "Arthur user's guide". Whether you want to get to know me or you're just interested in my thoughts... Buckle up.
On This Page
- Recently Added Content
- Elevator Pitch
- Interests, Values, and Passions
- Random Tidbits
- Valuable Resources
- Personality and Behavioral Profiles
Recently Added Content
Stubs written or modified in the last 21 days.
Fault and Blame
Stubbed on 2021-10-07
We seem to think of fault and blame as a sort of pie that needs to be divided among actors. This seems like the wrong approach.
Good versus Evil
Stubbed on 2021-04-15 (last updated on 2021-10-10)
Why are we so attracted to the idea of "good versus evil"? How is it helpful, and where do we need to be more careful?
Grammar and Language
Stubbed on 2020-04-21 (last updated on 2021-10-12)
I'm rather particular about grammar and language, sometimes in pretty unconventional ways.
Stubbed on 2020-04-12 (last updated on 2021-10-24)
Could "having a temper" really be a symptom of emotional repression?
I'm a logic-emotions monist, open (almost to a fault), wholehearted, wild, untamed, and disciplined in mind and action. (I wrote a decent stub on Family Arguing that proposes a causality for how I came to be this way.)
I tend to be a generalist and selective specialist, but a huge nerd through and through. I'm a die-hard advocate of induction as the primary mode of human cognition. My superpowers include seeing patterns and untangling nuanced differences. I'm especially good at seeing underlying principles, whether in human behavior or API design, as well as finding general, future-proof solutions to seemingly disparate problems. Check out my Personality and Behavioral Profiles below.
To me, integrity means integrating mind, body, and spirit. It means continuously learning rational (ie, practical) principles, and walking the walk and talking the talk. I embrace consistency and reject compartmentalization. I'm a geek about intellectual pursuits, I'm maniacal about physical fitness (in health, bodybuilding, and diet), and I'm always learning and growing in the areas of mindfulness and empathy (thank you, meditation).
I'm opinionated and curious, willful and flexible, arrogant and aware of my limitations, direct and sensitive/tactful (or, well, I try!). I always have to be right, not necessarily appear right or merely "win" arguments. I worship at the alter of the supreme sanctity of the truth; discovering that I was wrong is a gift that allows me to learn the truth and actually be right. I'm utterly intransigent about certain things (especially more fundamental matters of principle), but really easygoing about a lot of more superficial things. This seems to create a lot of confusion for people, and most people erroneously conclude that I'm just uptight and inflexible. I'm okay with being not understood, but I really struggle with (and get defensive about) being misunderstood.
I love logging things in the spirit of Quantified Self, though it's not an especially social phenomenon for me. Part of my love of it is in bringing order to the chaos of life through data normalization.
What is "The Truth about the Dishwasher"? You'll have to wait until I write about it...
While I buck a lot of social conventions and many of the superficial manifestations of my traits are baffling to a lot of people (believe me, I will write plenty on this), if you really get me, if you really see and understand the core of my being, I am super predictable.
I love children, and I can't wait to be a dad.
I'm a product manager for the Alexa Device SDK for Amazon.
I grew up in Los Angeles, I lived in the San Francisco Bay area for nearly 10 years, I was in Denver "temporarily" for about a year to figure out whether I want to live in Colorado permanently, and I've been living in Bailey, Colorado since the end of August 2021.
Interests, Values, and Passions
- bodybuilding and physical fitness
- meditation, mindfulness, wholeheartedness, vulnerability, and empathy
- tech geekery
- philosophy (especially ethics and epistemology, especially Objectivism)
- parenting theory (cannot wait to put this into practice)
- snowboarding (IKON Base Pass and Epic Local Pass for 2021-2022)
- Krav Maga (will pick this up after COVID-19 restrictions lift at Colorado Krav Maga, but previously at Krav Maga San Francisco)
- Star Trek
- piano (current obsession: BWV 999 (JS Bach Prelude in c minor))
- cooking (haven't done anything creative in a while, though)
- good UX (yes, on websites and apps, but really, in the world generally!)
- management theory
- learning Hebrew (kind of fell off the wagon on that, honestly)
- soccer (AYSO)
- tennis (throughout childhood and Palisades High School Boys Tennis 1999-2000)
- swimming (Santa Monica College Men's Swimming & Diving 2001-2002)
- rowing (UCLA Men's Rowing 2003-2005)
- triathlon (UCLA Triathlon Team 2005-2007)
- touch rugby (Stanford Touch Rugby 2011-2013)
- ultimate frisbee (Big Gay Frisbee - SF 2013-2016)
- I'm a homebody. The chances of my initiating going out to eat, to a bar, or to a club are extremely slim. Dark, loud, and/or crowded? No, thanks. My perfect Friday or Saturday night involves going to bed early. But I love daytime activities, especially outdoors, and I respond well to invitations to participate in them!
- I'm a creature of habit; I love my routines and comforts.
- I hate wearing clothes. Specifically, I love being shirtless. It's a manifestation of my extreme vanity. (More on that controversial topic later!)
- I think glasses are incredible sexy/adorkable. I desperately wanted glasses when I was a kid, and I never understood any of the cultural norms around their being undesirable (like "four eyes, four eyes" taunting). I thought they were super cool, and even if I didn't need vision correction, they felt like a mark of being intellectual. There's more to say about all this, but now I wear glasses that offer mild vision correction, but I'd wear them regardless, just because I like the way I look in them.
- If I'm not actually barefoot, just nipping out on a quick errand in flipflops, or wearing snow/snowboarding boots, I wear Vibrams. I've been wearing them since 2011 for everything including work, gym, running, hiking/backpacking, and even formal events demanding a suit... I clearly don't wear them for the "fashion"; I find them comfortable, I think they're good for me physiologically, and I'm so allergic to wearing foot coffins (or dressing in general) just to accommodate others' expectations.
- I've been eating strict Paleo (with various modifications and refinements) since 2009. No cheating.
- I'm a compulsive nail-biter and "investigator" of my dermatological phenomena, which is apparently called "dermatillomania" or "excoriation disorder". (These are things I struggle with a lot.)
- I'm a horrible procrastinator. I often struggle to muster up the will to invest effort into tasks that would take 5-15 minutes to complete, so instead, they hang over my head for weeks or months, creating a ton of background stress. I find myself wondering whether this is a function of being extremely susceptible to cognitive inertia and the flip side of why being in a state of flow is such a powerful, productive experience for me. I think this is also related to why it's so important for me to set up daily/weekly routines, especially to handle administrative "adulting" tasks.
- I'm extremely risk-averse, definitely to a fault and in a very anxiety-provoking way. This is a disposition I really need to keep in check.
- I'm extremely conflict-averse, which people often find surprising, and which sometimes manifests as being too accommodating and encouraging being taken advantage of. But on matters of principle, I absolutely do not shy away from defending my values.
- I'm not as extroverted as I might seem. Indeed, I think I'm actually a severe introvert who just manifests extroverted behaviors because I find ideas energizing, but I find people (the vehicle for exchanging, discussing, and engaging in ideas) utterly exhausting.
- Growing up, I felt like I could often relate to adults better than my age-wise peers. I felt very comfortable socializing with them (though, in retrospect, I'm sure the feeling wasn't symmetric).
- I was obsessed with long hair as a kid and had a sort of pony tail (it was more of a poof) at various stages in my life up to about 16 years old. (Before I cut it off for good, when the hair was wet, it would go down to the middle of my back.)
- As a kid, I hated getting dirty. I didn't like playing in puddles or mud. I loved bathing. It's probably related to my attitudes about hygiene and cleanliness today, including perhaps my tactile aversion to stickiness and dust/chalk, my dislike of slimy foods, and paranoia about STDs. I literally and figuratively colored inside the lines (and still do).
- I'm extremely materialistic in that I attach high sentimental value to things most people would regard as unimportant--so I can't throw anything away. I think this is because "things" help to ground me in physical reality and provide an anchor for my memory, which feels fragile and fallible. I love my memorabilia; almost everything "sparks joy" (shove it, Marie Kondo!). But with the exception of groceries and occasional tech splurges, I'm pretty darned frugal by nature. (Also, already having way too many things helps create an incentive against acquiring even more things!)
- I love the beach and the ocean, and while I don't pursue them often enough, I enjoy all manners of water sports and being on various water crafts.
- I enjoy camping and hiking (after all, I'm an Eagle Scout), but I rarely initiate it, instead enthusiastically participating when others organize trips. (I wonder why that is...and how much of it might be more that I just like to think that I'm the kind of person who likes camping, considering how much I actually really like to stay clean and love my routines and creature comforts.)
- I hate traveling by plane, but I love the phenomenon of flying. I love window seats so that I can be filled with amazement at how we're in a metal can hurtling through the sky at incredible speeds and marvel at what human ingenuity can achieve. But the whole end-to-end process of commercial flying is super stressful, from booking air travel, to packing lightly enough, to getting to airports on time, to TSA security theatre, to numerous travel modality switching (car, walking, flying, walking, car), to sitting in claustrophobia-inducing uncomfortable seats that are not suited for someone who is 6'2". It means that if it's within an hour or two difference (eg, SF to LA), I'd much rather drive, even though driving is also super stressful for me (especially because of paranoia of getting speeding citations).
- I've never gone on vacation by myself. (I only first started snowboarding by myself in the 2020-2021 season, once day trips became practical for me.) If I take vacation time on my own, I'd much rather be frugal and stay at home, relaxing.
- Despite enjoying cooking (especially with others), I am not culinarily adventurous. Aside from the influence of my risk aversion and dislike of slimy things / weird textures, I have a lot of psychological hangups about certain food categories (eg, all seafood, the smell and idea of which I have strongly associated with rotting marine life in tide pools). I don't like exploring new foods, and I'm very happy to just eat the same boring thing, day in and day out. (This makes designing and adherence to meal plans for my fitness goals really easy!) See also my post on Paleo.
- I love spicy foods, and I joke that I have burned off all the capsaicin receptors in my mouth already.
- Listening to music is a very active process for me (meaning humming or singing along), so it's really hard for me to ever have it on in the background. It also means I don't much care for intentional music discovery (like Pandora). Invite me to the symphony, opera, or ballet if you're prepared to be hitting me every 5 seconds to stop me from signing along.
- I've never been to a music performance that didn't involve sitting in seats, but I do like quite a bit of contemporary music.
- I don't dance. Well, that's not true: I'm very comfortable learning dancing styles that have predefined moves that I might recombine on the fly to music (eg, swing, salsa, tango), and I've taken a few classes here and there. I tend to pick that up pretty well, but I'm not especially skilled. What I don't do is the random move-your-body-to-the-beat kind of dancing that's typical at clubs, weddings, etc. It's not that I'm inhibited in that regard; it's just not me. I feel stupid doing it, even though I don't think anybody else looks stupid doing it, and I know I don't look stupid to anybody else. I wouldn't do it in private, either...that also feels really uncomfortable. I used to be embarrassed about that and wished I could fit in, but nowadays, I'm way more comfortable just not participating, despite everybody else's attempts to talk me into dancing (which I think amounts to an unintentional attempt to shame me into it). Nope. Not me. Thanks!
- I'm a really fast runner, faster than anybody I've met in person (to the extent I've tested that). I'm also a sprinter, not an endurance runner (even though I have no problem snowboarding continuously for over 7 hours, resting only while riding the chairlift). I bet it's related to my being able to jump really high, too.
- I have a fear of falling from heights. Falling in general is no problem. No problem with chairlifts without the safety bar or flying in planes. But if I feel insecure or that there's a significant risk of falling from a height, it definitely triggers a panic response. I've had recurring nightmares as a kid about falling from cliffs. My heartrate increases dramatically when watching those videos of people prancing around on construction beams.
- In the 2004-2005 ski season, while driving up to Big Bear from LA at night, I was driving too fast and missed a curve in the mountain road. Had it not been for a turnout coincidentally being there, I would have driven off the side of the cliff to my death.
- In 2014, I broke my right 4th metacarpal playing ultimate frisbee...I jumped to block the opposing team from catching the disc, and it hit the back of my hand in exactly the wrong way. I now have two screws in my right hand.
- According to my dad, I was born left-handed, and my parents (re)trained me to be right-handed. I don't remember there being anything tumultuous about it; it's not like they "beat" it out of me. It was a totally no-big-deal thing, like "Oh, you're supposed to do this with your right hand.". I joke that their suppression of my left-handedness caused me to "act out" in other ways, like being gay. But in all seriousness, I wonder whether that explains some of my better-than-average ambidexterity. Or further, whether it's related to better left-right brain cooperation that could be the physical manifestation of my emotions-logic monism.
- I scrupulously avoid reading any news except tech news. I'm blissfully and self-righteously ignorant of current events. I find that most news disproportionately reports on the sensationalistic negative stuff going on around the world, perhaps catering to a sort of schadenfreude. Aside from finding that distasteful on philosophical grounds, I think it misrepresents the proportion of bad and good in the world and skews our perception of how good life is. There is so much good and wonderfulness in the world; I'd rather focus on that. And I'd much rather risk having a disproportionately positive view of the world than negative. Moreover, I have close to 0% control over nearly 100% of the negative stuff reported in "the news", and there's very little I can do differently on the basis of "being informed"; so what's the point? Yes, sure, I can fight for cultural change in the long term, but being informed of broad trends and certain major current events is inescapable, no matter how well I avoid explicitly pursuing "the news"; I don't need to be inundated with negativity to have a motive to live a good life and work to improve the world (if anything, that negativity would sap my energy to do so).
- I'm also fairly ignorant of history (which is actually a shame). If anything, I tend to know more about historical trends and periods than the "who's who" of history.
- I know very little about pop culture or spectator sports, neither of which I have much patience for. The most I might know is a little about actors in my favorite shows/movies and sports I've actually played.
- As a kid, I was obsessed with magic. I don't honestly know how much I really believed it was real, but I desperately wanted it to be real and to have magical powers. (No surprise, then, how obsessed I became with Star Trek's Q, Bewitched, I Dream of Jeannie, and Aladdin's Jafar, among others.) When I was much younger, the only thing I ever asked for for Christmas was a magic wand. Every blowing-out-the-birthday-candles wish was also for a magic wand...which, in later years, turned into "infinite control over time, space, and matter". I continue to have a very active imagination around exercising potential magical powers, including plenty of rumination/daydreaming about a related topic, what I would do with my one superpower, if I could choose only one. And all this is certainly related to the kinds of TV shows I tend to like.
- My favorite movie is The Time Traveler's Wife.
- 1 out of 10 Star Trek: The Next Generation episodes makes me cry. My favorites are Who Watches the Watchers and The Offspring. I'll let you make your own inferences about how much I cry during other TV shows and movies.
- My favorite fiction book is Atlas Shrugged. The His Dark Materials trilogy is a close second because fuck authority.
- I have a lot of favorites. I like things how I like them. It's probably a manifestation of how much I care about things in general.
- I ran a philosophy club at UCLA called LOGIC for about 7 years between 2004 and 2011. I took it extremely seriously and organized it as a 501(c)(3) non-profit corporation. We put on some very high-profile and well-attended events.
- Some of my closest friends are from middle school.
- The most consistent and frequent trigger of my anger is bad UX on mobile apps and websites and poor/inefficient customer service.
- Swords and knives violently cutting flesh in TV and movies? No problem. Needles and scalpels? Slow torture involving mutilation? I often can't look, and when I do, I'm at extreme risk of passing out. Getting my blood drawn can easily trigger a vasovagal response, but I have no problem making myself bleed using sharp tweezers on my own skin to "address" dermatological phenomena.
- I dropped out of high school. (Okay...I say that for dramatic effect. I tested out after 10th grade because I ran out of AP math and science classes...kind of.)
- Technically, Russian is my first language, and my parents forced me to go to Russian School on Saturdays for 11 years (maybe here?)...unsurprisingly, with my willful personality, I didn't get much out of it. I took French in high school and college. I took one quarter of Italian at UCLA.
- I studied piano pretty seriously between the ages of 7 and 18 (now I just dabble), I played flute in grades 6 and 7, and I was in choir in grades 7 through 10.
- I'm an Eagle Scout.
- I graduated from law school and even passed the CA Bar Exam.
- Brené Brown "speed round" / "rapid fire" from Unlocking Us:
- Vulnerability is
honesty to yourself.
- You're called to do something brave, but your fear is real. What's the very first thing you do?
- Something that people often get wrong about you is
that I like arguing, just because I'm willing to defend my beliefs.
- Last show that you watched, binged, and loved:
as of April 2020, The Magicians
- Favorite movie:
The Time Traveler's Wife
- A concert that you'll never forget:
While at university, I got access to discounted student tickets to the LA Opera to see Mozart's The Magic Flute. We got seats 4 rows from the stage, and my friends had to keep hitting me to stop singing along, since I had been listening to all the songs on repeat for a week leading up to it.
- Favorite meal:
ribeye steak, with a side of french fries cooked in beef tallow, a gigantic salad, and a glass of Malbec
- What's on your nightstand right now?
on 2020-04-26: Phillip Pullman's Once Upon a Time in the North, my mala beads, my (non-military) dogtags, a few Pixel phones, an empty glass (for water), and a some folded clothes
- A snapshot of an ordinary moment in your life that brings you joy:
snuggling with Billy
- What are you deeply grateful for right now?
my friends who truly see and understand me
- Vulnerability is
- If I were Maeve from Westworld, able to modify my "Attribute Matrix" on a tablet, here's what I would select (on a scale of 0-20):
- bulk apperception: 20
- candor: 20
- vivacity: 20
- coordination: 20
- meekness: 0
- humility: 0
- cruelty: 0
- self-preservation: 20
- patience: 10
Not really sure about this one... In some manifestations, impatience is a really good thing, insofar as it prompts doing something about an unacceptable situation, reflecting intense value commitments. In other manifestations, patience amounts to resilience and skill in being able to deal with a situation more coolly, calmly, rationally, and soberly.
- decisiveness: 20
- imagination: 20
- curiosity: 20
- aggression: 20
- loyalty: 20
This is provisional, since it depends on what you mean by "loyalty": loyalty to facts? loyalty to a person? being truly supportive by being willing to challenge a person and act in accordance with their long-term interests, even if unpleasant or uncomfortable in the immediate term? superficial agreement with / enablement of anything they say or do?
- empathy: 20
- tenacity: 20
- courage: 20
- sensuality: 20
- charm: 20
- humor: 20
These are ideas and approaches to various areas of life that I have derived great value from...with some indication of my own viewpoints sprinkled in.
- Renaissance Periodization
- Carolyn Hart Manual Therapy (San Francisco Bay Area, CA)
- Jeffrey Lem Optometry (San Francisco Bay Area, CA)
- Scott McKinzie Family Dentistry (San Francisco Bay Area, CA)
- Washington Square Park Dental (San Francisco Bay Area, CA)
Psychological and Emotional Well-Being
- Mařenka Cerny Somatic Psychotherapy (San Francisco Bay Area, CA)
- Brené Brown: website, Audible, Kindle
Her work covers many interconnected topics, including connection, compassion and empathy, vulnerability, courage, shame, perfectionism, belonging (versus "fitting in"), worthiness, authenticity ("being the wilderness"), and mind-emotion integration.
Take a peek at the resources below that are available for free (such as on YouTube) or take a look at "Which Book Do I Read First?".
- The Gifts of Imperfection: Audible, Kindle
- Daring Greatly: Audible, Kindle
- Rising Strong: Audible, Kindle
- Braving the Wilderness: Audible, Kindle
- I Thought It was Just Me (but it isn't): Audible, Kindle
- Dare to Lead: Audible, Kindle
- Listening to shame (talk): YouTube: TED
- The Power of Vulnerability (talk): Audible, YouTube: TED
- The Gifts of Imperfect Parenting (talk): Audible
- Men, Women and Worthiness (talk): Audible
- Rising Strong as a Spiritual Practice (talk): Audible
- The Call to Courage (talk): Netflix
- Brené Brown on Empathy (short): YouTube: The RSA
- Brené Brown on Blame (short): YouTube: The RSA
- Unlocking Us (podcast): Website, Spotify
- Attachment Theory
- Sue Johnson: Hold Me Tight: Seven Conversations for a Lifetime of Love: Audible, Kindle
- Gary Chapman: The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love that Lasts: Kindle
- Harriet Lerner: Why Won't You Apologize?: Audible, Kindle
- Lundy Bancroft: The Joyous Recovery: Kindle
- Marc Brackett: Permission To Feel: Audible, Kindle, website
- Bessel Van der Kolk: The Body Keeps the Score: Audible, Kindle
- Deb Dana: The Polyvagal Theory in Therapy: Audible, Kindle
- Marshall Rosenberg: Nonviolent Communication: Audible, Kindle eTextbook
- Susan Campbell: Getting Real: 10 Truth Skills You Need to Live an Authentic Life: Kindle
- revelatori (Tori Press)
- Carl Dweck: Mindset: Audible, Kindle
- James Clear: Atomic Habits: Audible, Kindle
- Authentic Relating and Circling
Parenting and Education
A parent's job is to be a guide in a child's development into an adult. A parent is a model, not an authority figure. A child must learn, not obey. A parent should not try to tame their child or desire obedience, but to help the child cultivate the skills of agency, self-determination, self-regulation, independent judgment, internal motivation, and efficacy. "Punishment", ranging from grounding to stonewalling to physical striking, are not effective tools; they teach a child that these are normal modes of interaction between human beings and handicap their future adult relationships. Punishment and "consequences" create power struggles and undermine the possibility of finding win-win solutions. While I wouldn't say it's always wrong to characterize a child as "misbehaving", the more useful framing is to understand that the child is attempting to achieve a value, perhaps ineffectively, and that it's the parent's job to help the child learn more effective ways of achieving values. Regardless, approaching a child with anger or phrases such as "You're bad." and "You're being bad." (which a child is likely to internalize as a matter of basic identity) are disastrous.
- Positive Discipline
- Brené Brown: The Gifts of Imperfect Parenting
- Carl Dweck: Mindset: Audible, Kindle
This is, hands-down, the most important innovation in math education in history, and I don't say that lightly. Grant Sanderson's approach to grounding math in graphical intuition and connecting it to reality has the ability to inspire curiosity and passion and prevent kids from checking out of math because of how it's so often taught as merely abstract symbol manipulation.
- Manager Tools
- Kim Scott: Radical Candor: Audible, Kindle
- Carl Dweck: Mindset: Audible, Kindle
- Peter Drucker: The Effective Executive: Audible, Kindle
"Why does philosophy matter?"— Existential Comics (@existentialcoms) August 5, 2015
"I don't know, why does science matter?"
"Well because scie-"
"Annnnnnnd you are doing philosophy."
Philosophy: Who Needs It
Your subconscious is like a computer--more complex a computer than men can build--and its main function is the integration of your ideas. Who programs it? Your conscious mind. If you default, if you don't reach any firm convictions, your subconscious is programmed by chance--and you deliver yourself into the power of ideas you do not know you have accepted. But one way or the other, your computer gives you print-outs, daily and hourly, in the form of emotions--which are lightning-like estimates of the things around you, calculated according to your values. If you programmed your computer by conscious thinking, you know the nature of your values and emotions. If you didn't, you don't.
Okay, so I feel like I need to offer a fair bit of clarification on this, since I think terms like "selfishness" and "capitalism" can be readily polarizing and misunderstood, given widespread (mis)use in our culture. I'll do more of that clarification in a post at some point. For now, here's a summary of my viewpoints, which I credit to Objectivism and Ayn Rand.
- metaphysics: absolute reality
Facts are what they are. Our mere fact of believing or wishing does not change them.
- epistemology: knowledge through induction
Concepts are inductive generalizations of observations of concrete entities given in perception, as well as of other concepts. Bona fide knowledge and certainty is always contextual; new discoveries and understanding does not inherently overturn previous knowledge, but in a proper progression, builds on and expands it.
- ethics: egoism
The moral purpose of my life is my own happiness, prosperity, and joy, not the mere satisfaction of momentary hedonistic whims or pleasures. Sterilely, the purpose of my relationships with other people is to serve my own well-being, but I experience others as a tremendous potential or actual value to my life, and therefore, emotionally, as ends in themselves. I seek out win-win relationships. I believe people's true interests are harmonious, so there are no win-lose relationships; anything purported to be a win-lose relationship is really a lose-lose relationship. I reject the glorification of sacrifice and suffering. More concretely, the egoistic virtues I embrace are rationality, independence, integrity, honesty, justice, productiveness, and pride.
- Tara Smith: Ayn Rand's Normative Ethics: The Virtuous Egoist: Kindle
- politics: (laissez-faire) capitalism
The concept of "individual rights" identifies the factual requirements of human flourishing in a social context; the concept identifies the actions that are permissible and prohibited in a society if we want to create the conditions that enable prosperity. Negatively put, the initiation of physical force (including fraud) and its threat are prohibited. Positively put, people may act on their own independent judgment with respect to their own person and property, provided they do not interfere with others' ability to do the same. This amounts to freedom and what it means to live in a free society (we are not very close to that at present).
- aesthetics: romantic realism
The purpose of art is to provide spiritual fuel and to directly evoke emotions in a way that may bypass explicit conceptual awareness.
More to come on this... But for now, major hat tip to Melissa Cade, who painstakingly implemented and iterated on the design with me!
|wolf||wildness, freedom, instinctiveness, control, playfulness, curiosity, intelligence, nobility, loyalty, guardianship, sexual ferocity, aggressiveness, ritual|
|triquetra||integration of mind, body, and spirit; love of magic (via Charmed)|
|triquetra heart modification||whole-heartedness|
|dragons||Arthurian legend; power, magic, wisdom, strength, untamed nature, clarity of purpose, guarding material wealth|
|lotus||(pursuit of) enlightenment, growth, perseverance over pain and difficulty|
|rowing oars||discipline, dedication|
|Starfleet emblem||love of Star Trek, optimism, technology|
|Front Range crown||love of the mountains and Colorado, firmness, stillness|
|sun||love of heat, energy, clarity, confidence, goodness, peace|
|wave||love of the ocean, change, flow, serenity and turbulence|
|snowflake||love of the snow and snowboarding, uniqueness|
|flux capacitor||love of Back to the Future, time travel, four-dimensional / abstract thinking|
|The One Ring||power, magic|
|Earth point of origin||love of Stargate, exploration|
|crown symbol orientation||geekiness and nerdom on wolf's right brain and nature on wolf's left brain, inverting the traditional left-right brain dichotomy to represent integration of intellect and emotion|
Personality and Behavioral Profiles
- as of 2015
- identify with strongly: *N*J
abstract, conceptual thinking is my strongest trait
- identify with weakly: *N*P
mostly a "control freak", but I can be comfortable going with the flow
- don't identify with at all: *S**
- identify with strongly: *N*J
- 16Personalities: INFJ-T ("Turbulent Advocate" "Diplomat" with "Constant Improvement" strategy)
- mind: 72% introverted
Introverted individuals prefer solitary activities and get exhausted by social interaction. They tend to be quite sensitive to external stimulation (eg, sound, sight, or smell) in general.
- energy: 58% intuitive
Intuitive individuals are very imaginative, open-minded, and curious. They prefer novelty over stability and focus on hidden meanings and future possibilities.
- nature: 61% feeling
Feeling individuals are sensitive and emotionally expressive. They are more empathic and less competitive than Thinking types, and focus on social harmony and cooperation.
- tactics: 60% judging
Judging individuals are decisive, thorough, and highly organized. They value clarity, predictability, and closure, preferring structure and planning to spontaneity.
- identity: 56% turbulent
Turbulent individuals are self-conscious and sensitive to stress. They are likely to experience a wide range of emotions and to be success-driven, perfectionistic, and eager to improve.
- mind: 72% introverted
I'm not sure that Myers-Briggs is especially helpful, but I think it's interesting. I think that the tests are really badly designed (lots of false dichotomies and poor wording that will militate a type in the wrong direction if answered accurately). In 2015, I decided to do my own analysis, reading through the 16 descriptions and bucketing them into (1) identify with strongly, (2) identify with weakly, and (3) don't identify with at all. The results were unsurprisingly consistent:
- All the *N*J types were in the identify with strongly bucket.
- All the *N*P types were in the identify with weakly bucket.
- All the *S** types were in the don't identify with at all bucket.
The interpretation of this, given the premises of Myers-Briggs, is as follows:
- Abstract thinking is my strongest trait, and I'm not concrete-bound.
- I'm mostly type-A, but I can go with the flow if necessary.
- I'm equally split on E/I and T/F.
One of the many problems here is that N is often characterized as big-picture, abstract thinking (without implying a difficulty in dealing with particulars), whereas S is often characterized as being concrete-bound and unable to deal with abstractions. So that makes my results all the less surprising.
With respect to being type-A (J) versus going with the flow (P), the way I think about that is that I like things how I like them, I like to plan, I like structure and order, and I am selectively flexible, in circumscribed contexts. It's a bit of an exaggeration, but think of it as needing to plan unstructured time on the calendar. A realistic example might be something like J: Today, we're going to go snowboarding. P: It doesn't matter to me which resort we go to or what time we arrive or leave. J: It would sure be nice to know in advance what the plan is. P: But it's no big deal if we wing it.
I tend to test high on E, but that's not necessarily surprising, since I get energy from discussing ideas (and that involves people), even though I actually consider myself an introvert, since people are exhausting. So reading the descriptions, I'm en even split, but I don't think that's really right.
There's a lot more to be said about T "versus" F, but I'll summarize here. The clearest articulation I've read of the essence of the dichotomy is that it's about what your initial reaction is to a situation or stimulus: Do you first have the big emotion and defer analysis until you've calmed down (F)? Or do you first get into analysis, waiting to process feelings later (T)? Now, this framing might mostly apply to most people, so I can see why it might be useful. But it's difficult for me to relate to it. It's why I characterize myself as a logic-emotions monist. I have all the feelings and all the thoughts all the time, always. Something happens, and I'm immediately analyzing it and having/embracing/processing strong emotions. While it's possible to separate out thinking and feeling for analysis, experientially, it's all the same phenomenon for me. (I think that's also related to the connection between emotions and induction.) Thinking and feeling are just different dimensions of the same experience. Of course, because of the way that most Myers-Briggs test questions are framed, I end up scoring as a very high F, but in reality (and I think the type descriptions bear this out), I'm just very high on both. Technically, I think it's a false dichotomy.
By the way, what do you think it says about my likely Myers-Briggs type that I went through all that analysis?
See Manager Tools Podcasts and summary PDF.
I'm very thing-/fact-/task-/idea-oriented:
- high Dominance: like to be in charge and take control of situations
- high Conscientiousness: love my rules and structures and processes
The Four Tendencies
- Questioners question all expectations, and they respond to an expectation only if they conclude that it makes sense--in essence, they meet only inner expectations. They're motivated by reason, logic, and fairness. They wake up and think "What needs to get done today, and why?".
- Resists outer expectations.
- Meets inner expectations.
- "I do what I think is best, according to my judgment. If it doesn't make sense, I won't do it."
- Arguments such as "Everyone has to do this.", "You said you'd do this.", "Because I say so.", or "I'm the doctor." aren't compelling to a Questioner.
Well, "You said you'd do this." does indeed resonate with me, since my commitments have become inner expectations (living up to integrity and responsibility).
Wow, does this ever need some editorial commentary... sigh...
Summarizes the pattern of your results
- The Orchestrator
Orchestrators excel at bringing people together, organizing around them, and mobilizing resources to achieve and exceed expectations. They tend to be planful, precise, engaging, and people-oriented.
- The Planner
Planners are driven to put structure and systems around goals, translating ideas into practical and achievable plans. They tend to be planful, methodical, and results-oriented.
- The Commander
Commanders are driven to achieve goals through determination and holding themselves and others to high standards of performance. They tend to be driven and demanding leaders who are pragmatic and results-oriented.
- The Orchestrator
- How You Prefer to Think
Your Cognitive Orientations
- Creative: 35%
You are willing to think independently and do things your own way, and have more interest in sticking to familiar routines than in exploring new and unfamiliar experiences.
- Original: 58%
You have a moderate preference to seek novelty and discover new ideas and methods.
- Curious: 8%
You have a preference for the familiar and known over seeking out unknown and unfamiliar experiences.
- Non-Conforming: 61%
You have a strong preference for doing things your own way, breaking rules and traditions, and initiating change.
- Original: 58%
- Detailed and Reliable: 84%
You tend to be orderly, planful, and detail-focused, as well as generally reliable in meeting deadlines and commitments in a timely way.
- Organized: 77%
You have a strong preference to control your environment by being orderly, making plans, and following schedules.
- Detail-Oriented: 93%
You have a very strong preference to focus on details and get things precise, right, and perfect.
- Dependable: 51%
You have a moderate preference for meeting commitments, obligations, and deadlines in a timely way.
- Organized: 77%
- Practical: 13%
You you tend to be less concerned with the direct, practical consequences or constraints of a given action as a key factor in decision-making, possibly favoring a more idealistic approach.
- Deliberative: 84%
You tend to rely on logic, be methodical and process-oriented, but generally trust your instincts when reaching decisions and making choices.
- Logical: 97%
You have a very strong preference for applying logic and reason to your thinking rather than intuition and feeling.
- Systematic: 93%
You have a very strong preference to be systematic, methodical, and deliberate in work and decision-making.
- Impartial: 25%
You have a preference for subjectivity and personal instinct rather than facts and objectivity when making decisions.
- Logical: 97%
- Conceptual: 95%
You have a preference to think abstractly and philosophically, using theories and models to solve problems.
- Creative: 35%
- How You Engage with Others
Your Interpersonal Orientations
- Extraverted: 30%
You tend to prefer less social activity and to engage in more intimate settings, are more cautious than adventurous in the activities you like to participate in, but are comfortable asserting yourself when you find yourself in social situations.
- Gregarious: 32%
You have a preference for less social engagement in group settings and to spend more time either alone or in more intimate settings.
- Engaging: 71%
You have a strong preference for being in the social spotlight and entertaining others.
- Adventurous: 5%
You have a preference to be more cautious than adventurous in approaching activities and experiences.
- Gregarious: 32%
- Nurturing: 46%
You tend to be sensitive to people's feelings and emotions in the moment, while placing less of a priority on actively tending to their needs.
- Helpful: 24%
You have a tendency to place less value on supporting and tending to the needs of others, prioritizing self-reliance.
- Empathic: 65%
You have a strong tendency to be sensitive to the emotions and feelings of others.
- Person-Oriented: 57%
You have a moderate tendency to be genuinely captivated by other people's lives and behavior, perceptive of their quirks and tendencies, and eager to listen to their stories.
- Helpful: 24%
- Humorous: 3%
You tend to be more serious than lighthearted.
- Tough: 82%
You tend to be willing to debate your and others' ideas, to say what you think, though may be less inclined to be openly critical of others.
- Feisty: 90%
You have a very strong preference to debate, argue, and fight for your ideas and opinions.
- Critical: 33%
You have a low inclination to critique others openly, telling them what they did wrong and why, possibly to avoid hurting their feelings.
- Direct: 93%
You have a very strong preference to express views bluntly and straightforwardly, worrying less about style and nuance.
- Feisty: 90%
- Leadership: 62%
You are willing to take charge in groups and rally others around a common vision or goal, with less inclination to direct others through setting clear standards and applying pressure to see them met.
- Taking Charge: 84%
You have a very strong willingness to assume leadership for tasks and take charge in groups.
- Inspiring: 70%
You have a strong preference to use motivation and inspiration to rally others around a vision or goal.
- Demanding: 15%
You have a low preference toward setting clear goals and objectives for others to meet or applying pressure to see them accomplished.
- Taking Charge: 84%
- Extraverted: 30%
- How You Apply Yourself
Your Motivational Orientations
- Composed: 21%
You may get frustrated easily or experience worry or self-doubt, though do your best to keep emotions under control in challenging situations.
- Calm: 13%
You have a tendency to experience swings in moods and emotions and can get upset or frustrated easily.
- Confident: 21%
You have a tendency to experience self-doubt and be more easily discouraged or melancholic at times.
- Poised: 45%
You have a moderate tendency to maintain composure and express equanimity under pressure.
- Calm: 13%
- Flexible: 13%
You prefer environments with less change and uncertainty, to be consistent in who you are and the roles you play regardless of the circumstances, though you have a strong interest in your own growth and development.
- Adaptable: 18%
You have a preference for less change and ambiguity in how you approach your circumstances and environment.
- Agile: 3%
You have a preference to keep your behavior and personality consistent regardless of the situation or role you need to play.
- Growth-Seeking: 79%
You have a strong preference to develop, grow, and change particularly through looking at what you are like and reflecting on mistakes and failures.
- Adaptable: 18%
- Humble: 26%
You tend to be receptive to critical feedback, though may be less inclined to actively seek out perspectives that are different from your own to examine where you might be wrong, with a tendency to value projecting self-confidence over modesty.
- Receptive to Criticism: 96%
You have a very strong preference to seek and receive constructive feedback on mistakes and weaknesses.
- Open-Minded: 32%
You have a lower preference for openly examining what you don't know or where you might be wrong.
- Modest: 2%
You have a preference to project your self-confidence, be hesitant to acknowledge limitations, and be inclined to overstate rather than understate your knowledge.
- Receptive to Criticism: 96%
- Status-Seeking: 3%
You tend to be comfortable with your station in life, content to be who you are, and not worry much about others’ impressions of you.
- Autonomous: 99%
You are independent, self-motivated, and hold yourself accountable for outcomes you experience.
- Independent: 99%
You have a very strong preference for taking on goals independently, without much guidance or direction.
- Self-Accountable: 90%
You have a very strong belief that success and failure is based on your own effort and work, and that success is attributable to factors within your control.
- Internally Motivated: 85%
You have a very strong preference for finding and pursuing your own motivations in work and life.
- Independent: 99%
- Determined: 75%
You work hard to go after ambitious goals, tend to take action to seize opportunities and solve problems you confront, and generally push through with resolve to finish what you start.
- Persistent: 46%
You have a moderate desire to push through with resolve and finish what you start.
- Driven: 93%
You have a very strong preference to set ambitious goals and objectives, and value achieving them above all else.
- Proactive: 66%
You have a strong preference to go beyond responsibilities to find answers, seize opportunities, "act like an owner," and take quick action to solve problems.
- Persistent: 46%
- Energetic: 91%
You have high levels of stamina, enthusiasm, and energy in work and life.
- Composed: 21%
- "You" in Context
How you behave in work and life situations
- When interacting with others, you...
- prefer to spend more time alone, and prefer not to stand out when engaging socially
- tend to be more serious than humorous and lighthearted
- are willing to speak your mind and make an effort to convey that it comes from a place of care
- won't sugarcoat critiques, but try to make it clear that you care
- despite your efforts, may be perceived as more tough than compassionate
- When planning, you...
- favor stability and predictability and orchestrate plans to withstand change
- believe changes in strategy should only be made when contingency plans are in place
- drive hard toward clear, specific goals
- like to identify precisely what's needed to achieve goals
- operate best with a well-structured and fleshed-out plan to track progress against
- track progress diligently against targets
- make a strong effort to complete tasks early
- translate big-picture strategies into detailed plans
- When setting goals, you...
- set practical and realistic targets and push through to achieve them
- prefer to go after your own goals rather than following others
- move forward with focus and determination, though may not adapt quickly enough when goals demand flexibility
- Under stress, you...
- gravitate toward stability and predictability to keep you centered
- can get more reactive and emotional in situations with more ambiguity and uncertainty
- may be resistant to taking advice from others
- could benefit, in your desire to accomplish ambitious goals, from working on maintaining your equanimity (eg, via meditation or other techniques)
- may tend to retreat into your own head
- may be less expressive, so others may perceive you as calm, even if you are experiencing things strongly under the surface
- As a leader, you...
- demand and hold others accountable for results
- argue for your beliefs and say what you think
- call out underperformers whenever justified
- take initiative and rely on concrete instructions and clear standards when directing others
- may be less inclined to instigate major change
- prefer to go your own way without getting much direction from others
- may prefer to project confidence and certainty, rather than acknowledge weakness and uncertainty openly
- balance when to assert direction and when to let others take a lead
- When solving problems, you...
- like to stick to more traditional methods, and don't have much interest in engaging or debating unproven possibilities
- are comfortable finding solutions without much direction or guidance
- are quick to put structure and precision around vague ideas
- believe it's ill-advised to rely on untested solutions
- rely on past experience as a guide
- don't take unnecessary risks
- trust reason and established rules
- like to take a concrete and systematic approach
- On a team, you...
- are willing to express opinions directly, though may be not be the first to dive into the conversation
- are more comfortable working on your own, but help and support others when called upon
- like to work independently on tasks without too much interaction or direction
- set high goals and push back on any attempts to lower the bar
- care about the team's success as well as your own
- may perceive more emergent personalities as disorganized, while they might perceive you as a bit rigid
- When learning, you...
- prefer topics that are logical and objective over those that are intuitive and subjective
- pay very close attention to facts and data
- prefer an organized curriculum and following a clear schedule
- take your deadlines and commitments seriously
- may lose interest when subjects get theoretical
- like to read, analyze, and process before sharing ideas and conclusions
- work things out in your own head rather than actively engage other people's perspectives
- don't find open-ended brainstorms particularly productive
- like subjects that are abstract and philosophical
- like to study in peace and quiet where you can focus
- like to watch, read, and write
- are interested in applying tested methods using concrete knowledge and skill
- have good stamina and endurance
- When interacting with others, you...
- Guilt & Shame Quiz
2020-04-04 17:15 PDT
- Guilt Self-Talk: ~91% (raw score of 51 out of 55)
- Shame Self-Talk: ~28% (raw score of 23 out of 55)
- Blaming Others: ~10% (raw score of 15 out of 55)
The 5 Love Languages by Gary Chapman: Kindle, website
- How I prefer to receive love:
- Physical Touch
- Quality Time
- Acts of Service
- Words of Affirmation
- Receiving Gifts
- How I naturally show love:
- Acts of Service
- Physical Touch
- Quality Time
- Words of Affirmation
- [Giving] Gifts
- Personal Development School
- 0% Fearful Avoidant
- 30% Anxious Preoccupied
- Fear of abandonment
for me, not "fear", but discomfort
- Dislike being alone or out of relationships for prolonged periods of time
not true for me
- Fear of loss or disconnection in relationship
- Can appear clingy or needy
"appear" being the operative word...
- Emotional hunger to get consistently closer in a relationship
- Often want to move very quickly to a commitment in a relationship
I don't know about "want", but I certainly do...I find it very easy to be "all in" relatively quickly and by default, which seems more a manifestation of my secure traits.
- Very sensitive to rejection
yup, but only when I have a reasonable expectation of attention/interest and from someone I care about
- Develop strong feelings quite easily
understatement of the millenium
- Fear of abandonment
- 0% Dismissive Avoidant
- 70% Secure
- A natural tendency towards feeling safe to express your feelings and needs
- Openness towards communication and belief that conflicts are solvable problems
- Strong ability to regulate your emotions
- Empathy towards others
- Natural balanced with boundary setting
- Feel safe to express your truth
- Strong sense of self-identity
- Truity Free Enneagram Personality Test
2020-04-28 10:10 PDT
- 98% The Individualist (type 4)
Fours want to be unique and to live life authentically, and are highly attuned to their emotional experience.
- 96% The Challenger (type 8)
Eights see themselves as strong and powerful and seek to stand up for what they believe in.
- 89% The Perfectionist (type 1)
Ones place a lot of emphasis on following the rules and doing things correctly.
- 86% The Giver (type 2)
Twos want to be liked and find ways that they can be helpful to others so that they can be loved and belong.
- 82% The Achiever (type 3)
Threes want to be successful and admired by other people, and are very conscious of their public image.
- 80% The Investigator (type 5)
Fives seek understanding and knowledge, and are more comfortable with data than people.
- 68% The Skeptic (type 6)
Sixes are preoccupied with security, seek safety, and like to be prepared for problems.
- 52% The Enthusiast (type 7)
Sevens want to have as much fun and adventure as possible and are easily bored.
- 46% The Peacemaker (type 9)
Nines like to keep a low profile and let the people around them set the agenda.
- 98% The Individualist (type 4)
A chaotic good character acts as his conscience directs him with little regard for what others expect of him. He makes his own way, but he's kind and benevolent. He believes in goodness and right but has little use for laws and regulations. He hates it when people try to intimidate others and tell them what to do. He follows his own moral compass, which, although good, may not agree with that of society.
Chaotic good is the best alignment you can be because it combines a good heart with a free spirit.
Chaotic good can be a dangerous alignment when it disrupts the order of society and punishes those who do well for themselves.
While creatures of this alignment view freedom and the randomness of actions as ultimate truths, they likewise place value on life and the welfare of each individual. Respect for individualism is also great. By promoting the philosophy of chaotic good, characters of this alignments seek to spread their values throughout the world. To the chaotic good individual, freedom and independence are as important to life and happiness. The ethos views this freedom as the only means by which each creature can achieve true satisfaction and happiness. Law, order, social forms, and anything else which tends to restrict or abridge individual freedom is wrong, and each individual is capable of achieving self-realization and prosperity through himself, herself, or itself.
Chaotic good characters are strong individualists marked by a streak of kindness and benevolence. They believe in all the virtues of goodness and right, but they have little use for laws and regulations. They have no use for people who "try to push folk around and tell them what to do." Their actions are guided by their own moral compass which, although good, may not always be in perfect agreement with the rest of society.
These characters are basically good, but tend to be selfish and maybe a bit greedy. They tend to hold personal freedom and welfare above anything else. The chaotic good dislikes confining laws, self-discipline, and they distrust authority.
Chaotic goods believe that freedom is the only means by which each creature can achieve true satisfaction and happiness. Law, order, social forms, and anything else which tends to restrict individual freedom is wrong, and each individual is capable of achieving self-realization and prosperity through himself. These characters believe that life has no grand plan, but each creature's spirit is essentially noble and good. Each being must follow his own conscience. By performing good acts the individual can hope to alleviate the suffering and anguish of others, whether caused by random or structured acts.
The chaotic good character has a "beatific" attitude toward existence. In this character's opinion, any laws, social structures, or other such hierarchies that restrict his freedom are abhorrent and to be done away with. The inviolable right of the individual to seek his own pleasures is one of the cornerstones of society; but, being good, the chaotic good being will not tread on others to get his own way, for he feels that every other creature has the right to the pursuit of pleasure as well. Friends of a chaotic good character will find him unreliable in the clutch only if he puts his own well-being ahead of that of his companions. Obviously, almost everyone has this tendency, but it is left up to this individual whether or not he values a friendship enough to risk self sacrifice. The chaotic good being would not, however, take action that could unnecessarily jeopardize the lives of other persons or creatures. Life is valuable, but without sufficient personal freedom it is demeaned. Life and freedom are the foundation of the universe.
A chaotic good character will keep his word to those who are not evil and will lie only to evil-doers. He will never attack an unarmed foe and will never harm an innocent. He will not use torture to extract information or for pleasure, but he may "rough up" someone to get information. He will never kill for pleasure, only in self-defense or in the defense of others. A chaotic good character will never use poison. He will help those in need and he prefers to work alone, as he values his freedom. He does not respond well to higher authority, is distrustful of organizations, and will disregard the law in his fight against evil. He will never betray a family member, comrade, or friend. Chaotic good characters do not respect the concepts of self-discipline and honor, because they believe such concepts limit freedom to act.
Here are some possible adjectives describing chaotic good characters: unpredictable, independent, free spirited, cheerful, optimistic, easy going, carefree, helpful, kind, merciful, respectful of personal liberties, and anarchic.
Well known chaotic good characters from film or literature include: Han Solo (Star Wars), Batman (DC Comics), Fred and George Weasley (Harry Potter), and Robin Hood.
Equivalent alignment in other game systems: Unprincipled (Palladium), Light Side (Star Wars), Good (Warhammer), Gallant (Alternity).
The Ten Chaotic Good Commandments
A list of Ten Commandments for a chaotic good religion may look like this:
- You shall lie in the pursuit of goodness.
- You shall not harm the innocent.
- You shall not murder.
- You shall help the needy.
- You shall honor those who promote freedom and goodness.
- You shall break the law in pursuit of goodness.
- You shall not betray others.
- You shall avenge the acts of evil-doers and enemies of freedom.
- You shall not place duty above personal desire to do good.
- You shall seek unlimited good for others and freedom in society.
Ten Chaotic Good Sins
Likewise, a chaotic good religion may list the following as sins. This list is given in the order of least severe infraction to most severe.
- Failing to perform a random act of kindness when appropriate.
- Failing to pursue a new form of pleasure.
- Placing duty above personal desire.
- Failing to assist allies or good beings in need.
- Causing harm to an essentially good being.
- Following a law when you feel that it unnecessarily restricts your freedom.
- Turning down a chance to trick, cheat, or harm an evil being for personal gain.
- Betraying an ally or friend for evil reason.
- The murder of an innocent.
- Aiding the servants of Order and Evil.
Chaotic Good and Society
A chaotic good being...
- Is not concerned with the desires of family members.
- Values flexible relationships with romantic partners.
- Considers himself above the law.
- Finds most people to be narrow-minded and inflexible.
- Believes those who seek to rule others are, by nature, corrupt.
- Seeks to undermine the authority figures of his community or nation.
- Finds the legal procedures of his nation corrupt.
- Believes luck determines wealth.
- Will break any contract when he feels like it.
- Will not want to disappoint his family.
- Will support their family even if it means personal discomfort.
- Will never betray a friend and enjoys having close friends.
- Considers the needs of the community in personal life.
- Will give his life in defense of his community.
- Will take actions to aid others during times of crisis, even if unprofitable to do so.
- Believes everyone should be treated fairly and kindly.
- Feels guilt when he commits a wrongdoing and will seek to right his wrong.
- Uses wealth to help others who are less fortunate.
A chaotic good government influences the community by helping the needy and opposing restrictions on freedom. In a chaotic good society, The people mean well and try to do right, but are hampered by a natural dislike of big government. Although there may be a single ruler, most communities are allowed to manage themselves, so long as their taxes are paid and they obey a few broad edicts. Such areas tend to have weak law enforcement organizations. A local sheriff, baron, or council may hire adventurers to fill the gap. Communities often take the law into their own hands when it seems necessary. Lands on the fringes of vast empires far from the capital tend to have this type of alignment.
as of 2013-01-02
People who are especially talented in the Individualization theme are intrigued with the unique qualities of each person. They have a gift for figuring out how people who are different can work together productively.
People who are especially talented in the Strategic theme create alternative ways to proceed. Faced with any given scenario, they can quickly spot the relevant patterns and issues.
People who are especially talented in the Competition theme measure their progress against the performance of others. They strive to win first place and revel in contests.
People who are especially talented in the Responsibility theme take psychological ownership of what they say they will do. They are committed to stable values such as honesty and loyalty.
People who are especially talented in the Achiever theme have a great deal of stamina and work hard. They take great satisfaction from being busy and productive.
- PsychCentral Sanity Quiz (lower scores represent better health)
as of 2020-08-03
- 56 Overall (range 0-288)
Based upon your answers, you appear to be in generally good mental health, with some specific concerns or issues in your life. Most people have such issues to varying degrees--some seek outside help for them from a mental health professional like a psychologist, psychiatrist or psychotherapist, while others are happy with the way things are in their life. People with similar scores sometimes feel overwhelmed by the occasional stress in life, but usually recover and are fairly resilient.
- 36 General Coping (range 0-100)
People with similar scores as yours tend to feel a little overwhelmed by life at times. You appear to express some unhappiness with the way your life is going right now.
- 19 Life Events (range 0-100)
- 41 Depression (range 0-100)
People with scores similar to yours are often experiencing some depressive symptoms. While these are often common amongst the general population, they can also border on the possibility of a depressive episode. It is unclear as to whether you suffer these problems severely enough to need to seek further diagnosis and treatment of them.
- 33 Anxiety (range 0-100)
People with scores similar to yours are typically experiencing some degree of anxiety, which may or may not be a concern serious enough to seek out professional help. Remember that a little anxiety in normal, everyday life is to be expected and is a good thing. Nobody should be without any anxiety whatsoever, as anxiety is our body's way of telling us that we should pay closer attention to a situation, event or person in our lives (even if that person is ourselves). Scores in this range suggests a person may be experiencing elevated levels of anxiety that may be causing some distress in an individual.
- 0 Phobias (range 0-100)
- 8 Self-Esteem (range 0-100)
- 10 Eating Disorders (range 0-100)
- 20 Schizophrenia (range 0-100)
- 8 Dissociation (range 0-100)
- 20 Mania (range 0-100)
- 0 Sexual Issues (range 0-100)
- 0 Relationship Issues (range 0-100)
- 0 Alcohol Concerns (range 0-100)
- 0 Drug Concerns (range 0-100)
- 33 Physical Issues (range 0-100)
People with scores similar to yours often have a physical issue that causes them some concern or effort in their daily lives.
- 0 Smoking Concerns (range 0-100)
- 0 Gambling Issues (range 0-100)
- 6 Technology Issues (range 0-100)
- 63 Obsessions-Compulsions (range 0-100)
People with scores similar to yours often have an obsessive-compulsive disorder.
- 33 Posttraumatic Stress (range 0-100)
People with scores similar to yours sometimes have a trait or two associated with posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), a disorder characterized by reliving a suffered trauma through flashbacks, nightmares or other recollections of the event. People who experience only mild PTSD symptoms often do not seek out further professional treatment or assistance for the occasional flashback or nightmare.
- 8 Borderline Traits (range 0-100)
- 56 Overall (range 0-288)
PsychCentral Autism Test
2020-08-03: 19 (No Autism / Asperger's Likely)
|1984||West Hollywood, CA|
|1987||Sister Jacqueline is born|
|1988||St Thomas the Apostle Preschool|
|1989||Parents legally changed my name from
Arthur Igor Zey
Arthur Igor Lechtholz-Zey
|Temple Israel Kindergarten|
|1990||Brother Andrew is born|
|Brentwood Science Magnet
|Walter Reed Middle School||Self-employed Tech Consulting|
|Palisades High School|
|1999||Sister Elizabeth is born|
|Santa Monica College|
|2001||Duckett-Wilson Development Company|
Rieber 5 South
Math of Computation BSc
Hedrick 7 North
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|2005||Parents get divorced|
|UCLA School of Law|
|2006||Acquire step-family (Masha, Emily, Michael)|
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|Santa Monica, CA||Legally changed my name from
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